In Memory of Jilly Dog

After losing weight after halfway through Sept 2008, didn't think she would last till the end of the month.She was still mooching around up till 15 OCTOBER She lost weight still more, but was still alive , like a skeleton with fur.She still had appetite for ham and chicken, but was very weak, getting confused.Already she was deaf, eyesight was poor,these are things that built up over a period of time.Took to the vet for checkup 2 weeks ago, had a steriod injection, , she picked up for a while.Brought some puppy food and suppliments to try stave off the inevitable.She still was able to walk around but very weak, all skin and bone,I was hoping she might pass away naturally, but no she hung on in there, not the dog she used to be, sad to watch her wander around , losing strength,thought I was going to see if she would last till the end of October, but came to the conclusion, she was so skinny , not fair to let her continue , I was just putting off the inevitable.Had to bite the bullet , took her to the vet, he was of the opinion, that nothing more could be done for her, so to put to sleep was a kind thing to do.Logic says it was right to stop her unecessary suffering, but illogical brain makes me feel remorse and guilt, sorrow all at once. Try to forget the sadness and remember the goods times.Time is agood healer, meanwhile feel like crap.So sad yesterday , feel little better today, but still nagging sadness.Yes I cried my eyes out, had that pesky dog for 15 years, now suddenly shes gone.God bless that dog.
Photos of JILL poor old thing