Saturday, 25 October 2008

Skinny Dog is no more

Poor old Jill went to doggie heaven.Was put down on the 5 Oct2008 a scar on my soul till my dying day.The vet said that it was the kind thing to do , but still have doubts about that, the main reason I made the descision to put her down ,was, she was skinny as a rake lost so much weight, was very slow in walking and looked confused, not much activity, didn't look like she was enjoying life anymore.All this is feeble justification on my part but,if I get to look she was , someone has my full permission to give me a needle to end it all.In fact at the moment of Jill passing away, I felt slightly jealous of her, escaping all lifes trials and tribulations, not to mention was feeling pretty fucking low myself at that time.Then other thoughts kick in , what about the kids, and my other pooch that relies onme. So can't give in just yet, have to stay around for others not only for myself.Death isn't to be feared just held off till the right time.Do I sound depressed maybe I am. Remorse is terrible had to take to the bed early that day, felt like crap.
Jill had her for over 15 years part of my life, only an animal, but invades the deepest part of your soul , if you have any, not a softie dog lover, but ,they manage to creep under your hard skin shell that you need to survive in this callous world, try'd my best to keep a stiff upper lip, but defied my best efforts, yes I cracked, and cried like a baby, no witnesses , but ,its hard to admit such feelings being a bloke ,not supposed to feel this way.
Anyhow what doesn't kill you makes you a better person.The dog was just a companion that did all the things dogs do, roll in stinky stuff, leave hairs all over the place, embarrass me on numerous occassions steal food, make a mess, but in the end dog time ran out, something don't want to go through again, but will, as I have another furry brute, just as much a pain in the backside as Jill, but no escape from the beasts.This little note is just my way of saying goodbye to a faithful companion.God bless you , dog, Amen lump in my throat, still not over the beast...

Thursday, 16 October 2008

In Memory of Jilly Dog

After losing weight after halfway through Sept 2008, didn't think she would last till the end of the month.She was still mooching around up till 15 OCTOBER She lost weight still more, but was still alive , like a skeleton with fur.She still had appetite for ham and chicken, but was very weak, getting confused.Already she was deaf, eyesight was poor,these are things that built up over a period of time.Took to the vet for checkup 2 weeks ago, had a steriod injection, , she picked up for a while.Brought some puppy food and suppliments to try stave off the inevitable.She still was able to walk around but very weak, all skin and bone,I was hoping she might pass away naturally, but no she hung on in there, not the dog she used to be, sad to watch her wander around , losing strength,thought I was going to see if she would last till the end of October, but came to the conclusion, she was so skinny , not fair to let her continue , I was just putting off the inevitable.Had to bite the bullet , took her to the vet, he was of the opinion, that nothing more could be done for her, so to put to sleep was a kind thing to do.Logic says it was right to stop her unecessary suffering, but illogical brain makes me feel remorse and guilt, sorrow all at once. Try to forget the sadness and remember the goods times.Time is agood healer, meanwhile feel like crap.So sad yesterday , feel little better today, but still nagging sadness.Yes I cried my eyes out, had that pesky dog for 15 years, now suddenly shes gone.God bless that dog.
Photos of JILL poor old thing

Friday, 11 January 2008

CV (Curriculum Vitae)



A highly motivated and successful marine craft operator, has acquired a broad base of skills consistent with the effective running of an organization, A proven Team Leader, delegating appropriately, maintaining full control through sound communication and interpersonal skills, building effective, highly motivated teams capable of achieving organizational objectives in arduous conditions. Successfully trained, mentored and developed junior team members, enabling individuals to gain specialist technical knowledge and realize personal skills and potential.

2006 RM POOLE Safety Equipment Worker(Civil Service}to present date.
2003 MDPGA To 2006 May
2002 Left Royal Marines end of service contract
1998 Royal Marines Poole
L.C.U. Troop Stores administrator
n Fast moving troop training environment training recruits new skills.
n On time ordering of stores, equipment.
n Safety equipment manager.

§ Successfully managed and co-ordinate planned and preventative maintenance activities to achieve minimum down time of training equipment.

n Successfully trained and managed personnel to the high standard of fitness professional ability required to react at short notice to situation world-wide, maintaining morale and efficiency of teams in complex critical situations over extended periods.

n Supervised and undertook daily maintenance and running of landing craft. Fully proficient in the management of preventative and proactive maintenance measures ensuring constant availability to undertake international tasking as directed by national executive

n Deal with press and civilian agencies on public relations exercises diplomatically and with courtesy enhancing corps reputation and ensuring visitor safety.

1997- 1998 H.M.S. Fearless.

n Stores Administrator
Maintaining and equipping the ships detachment with the necessary supplies needed to carry out their various tasks. By advanced planning having the equipment needed ready on time.

§ Amphibious Beach Unit Supply Team.
Maintaining the smooth running of stores from ship to shore for land based operations. An understanding of materials needed to be moved, preloading of equipment and knowing the order of offload to enable that the right equipment is offloaded in the correct sequence.

1995-1997 R.M.POOLE -Quartermasters Store Safety Equipment Supervisor

§ As part of the Administration team attended weekly and monthly meetings in the maintenance of equipment and stores.
1993-1994 DIEGO GARCIA-Naval Party 1002
§ Customs duties successfully liased with civilian and U.S. military personnel. Accountable to the foreign office via the islands British Representative, in maintaining smooth running of customs duties at the islands airfield, port area, stores faculty, fishery protection, wildlife conservation and inspection of outlying islands within a 100 mile radius of Diego Garcia.
§ Gained an award from the Royal Humane Society.
For saving the life of another Marine.

1972-1993 Various ships and establishments in both UK and internationally completing numerous professional courses and achieving promotion.

Successfully completed a general secondary education.
Computer skills Microsoft Certified Professional,Windows2000, Windows 2000 Server, Web Design, Adobe Photoshop, Illustrator 8, Quark Express 4.1
A member of "The Society of Telecommunication Engineers" qualified for aerial, satellite and cable T.V installation.
Sea survival equipment maintenance, First Aid and Fire fighting. Health and Safety CITB
Mobile crane operating techniques and safety procedures. Forklift License, C+E, Hazmat License All Classes Packages +Substances
V.M.2 Vehical Mech.
General Service Medal, Falklands Campaign Medal, Long service and good conduct medal.

Date of Birth 8 September 1956
Divorced 2 Children aged 5 and 3
Driving License Full
Walking the dog in the countryside, reading detective stories, computing on the Internet. Watching T.V.

IT Skills

Applying for Job Supporting Statement.
Worked at RM POOLE as safety Equipment Maintainer for 17 months
Enabled the smooth running of the Sea survival Cell whose main role is to keep 1AGRM safe in all their life saving Equipment.

Have passed Microsoft recognised course in Windows 2000 win2000 Server allowing me the Title of Microsoft Certified Professional


Skillsets: Troubleshoot network usage and computer peripherals. Installing new applications. Performing system backups and data recovery. Able carry out PC installation, maintenance, E-mail administration, disc capacity monitoring and network security.
Able to install,configure Wireless networking and associated security protocols
· good knowledge of:
. Computer programs - Graphic: Photoshop, CorelDraw, Paintshop Pro,QuarkXpress
. Computer programs – Web: GoLive, Dreamweaver, Frontpage,
· good knowledge of HTML code
· good knowledge of CSS
· good knowledge of TCP/IP, LAN, WAN
· good knowledge of hardware and working knowledge of the structure of personal computer

Configuration Management Data Base

This is the link for CMDB thanks technet and Uncle Bill Gates